Begging To Change

Do think about how you hurt people

How people just change who they are to you but that was who

they was the whole time just adapting to how u treat them

I was that person that adapted just so i don’t get called out

I hated the attention it felt like the world was ending between my fear i hate the way i let people take and take and don’t give and i’m tired; tired of not using my voice not taking a stand against myself and anyone that hurt me

I’m sitting here writing this and begging to change within

And i’m trying to make excuses so i don’t do what is most fear the fear of leaving myself like people did me and fear of losing myself in the moment of gaining myself

Fear of changing for the worst since every time i try to make things better the outcome is bad and i’m tired of killing my mind on the what if’s and but’s i’m tired and i’m finally saying it

So it feels amazing to unattach the anchor from my heart because

I am changing even if i like it or not it’s gonna happen and i can’t stop it even if i’m dying from it by wanting it to be done different

No more begging for change from people and no more begging for myself